Alas, first post from me this year!

I just realized that we missed our 2nd year anniversary. Our first post was on 16th November 2008. Our last post was 30th January this year by SaDu. Then, each of us manage our very own blog(s), and remain the silence in this “house”.

Tonight we are meeting again. I can’t remember when our last meet was. Probably months ago, can’t recall anything with my fish head. Recently I am reading the mind mapping by Tony Buzan, hopefully it’ll improve my memory capability. 😛

Have been stressed up, especially lately, as the year end is coming, and my focal doesn’t seem going well. Hopefully this is a false alarm AGAIN. I hate to go through this every year end, and my boss told me I am potential below expectation candidate. Frankly, this is very discouraging. If so, should have told me during mid-year, so I have at least 6 months to rectify the situation. If this is to make sure I don’t put on high hope to get more increment… Gosh, I must say your title is manager, but you aren’t there yet. You should be the below expectation candidate. Anyway, that’s life. Can’t rant this in my own blog, he might has an eye on it. 😦

There are a lot of things I promised I didn’t work it out this year. I was supposed to explore my Mac book, and iPhone application development, I didn’t. I was supposed to record my song using Mac book, I didn’t too. Frankly, when I see the Mac book lying on the desk, and the technical books that I bought this year to fulfill the “resolutions” that I made early this year, I feel bad. I am going to put these lists to my next year plan. Please, REMIND me!

Ah! Another 50 minutes before off office hour, but I’d like to leave earlier… So gals, see ya later!

Dedication

See you at Penang Times Square

Book this date at your calendar on the 20 December 2009 and let’s all have fun at Penang Times Square. For more details, check this brochure.

dis⋅ci⋅pline

–noun

1. training to act in accordance with rules; drill: military discipline.
2. activity, exercise, or a regimen that develops or improves a skill; training: A daily stint at the typewriter is excellent discipline for a writer.
3. punishment inflicted by way of correction and training.
4. the rigor or training effect of experience, adversity, etc.: the harsh discipline of poverty.
5. behavior in accord with rules of conduct; behavior and order maintained by training and control: good discipline in an army.
6. a set or system of rules and regulations.
7. Ecclesiastical. the system of government regulating the practice of a church as distinguished from its doctrine.
8. an instrument of punishment, esp. a whip or scourge, used in the practice of self-mortification or as an instrument of chastisement in certain religious communities.
9. a branch of instruction or learning: the disciplines of history and economics.

–verb (used with object)

1. to train by instruction and exercise; drill.
2. to bring to a state of order and obedience by training and control.
3. to punish or penalize in order to train and control; correct; chastise.

 

quoted from http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/discipline

 

My boss “shared” with us about discipline few weeks ago. The flexibility of working hour doesn’t mean can come in late everyday, and make it as a habit. We need to hold to discipline within our team. Talk about discipline huh?!

 

I started to “think” about it. He is the culprit that causes us NOT discipline. The team meetings or 1-1s time slot are being shifting around, and a lot of them become “ad-hoc” meetings. And now DEMAND us to open and share our calendar to him so that he know if he can overwrites other he THINK that it has lower priority meetings… I guess it’s just because he scheduled a REGULAR team meeting that crashed with my 1-1 with his boss. So he has to know exactly every meetings that we have in our calendar.

 

What if I allocated the time for my breakfast, lunch, rest, focus hours? Isn’t this is more important compare to meeting for a pass down session which can be done via email???

 

Is this a double standard of disciplinary that he talked about?

 

I am super reluctant to open and share my calendar. I’ll ignore this request for the time being. Just in case, my boss so geng to check the websites that I visited, and blogs that I updated from whatever log he got from company network and found this… Boss, my ex-boss said I am not an obedient engineer, and I believe I told you this. Please accept that not an obedient engineer is a valuable assets for your team, and I am one of them!

 

My, why an individual’s view so different when “upgrade” from engineer to manager?

我們的愛(our love)

I went to karaok alone yesterday. This song, somehow makes me cry.

Then, I suddenly know nothing about love. What love is all about? Can it be digitized? It would be best in a 2 value format, 1 or 0.